Unmaad

Intoxication ... High on Life ... Trance ... Adrenaline Rush ... Unmaaad

The concept of relentless energy has intruiged me ever since i was in school.
In school i used to flaunt about my ability to stay up late hours and then attend school .. go through the entire draining day at schoool .. attend class... come back and do the same shit all over again ... i really dunno wht made me tick ... Was

it my state of mind .... my friends .. my network .... my thoughtss.... it was so amazing ... the entire idea about sloggin trough 10th Std. ... it's often said that the journey is as important as the destination ... Subconsciouslly i ensured that the journey was very,very beautiful ...

As years passsed by ( 4 to be precise ) ... i've never been able to get access that state successfully ...it's been compulsive ... it's been forced upon by circumstances ...

At IIM B it was different .. it was magic .. it was a state that i could not express in words ... maybe Unmaad.

What is it that makes students go on relentlessy ... unliminted energy ...robotic n yet creative .. monotonous n'd yet not so

...
they're the future of India ... some of the best managers to-be.. India's corporate giants ....
I aspire to be amongst them...

Will i make it ? I dunno ... But i have questions ... & i want answers ... I badly do ... Even though i know that they all lie within me ... i need reassurance ... i need faith .. in myself and in the Universe !

What is their make up?
What is their strength?
What is it about them that's so surreal .. why can't we cut them down to size and make them more human ?

What is the secret of their success?
Am i not passionate enough? Am i not inspired enough ?

If i am, then why don't i translate my inspiration into action? into action that makes me go on forever ...
Do we always need a support system of friends to make us go on tirelessly .... to inspire us ?

When will i awaken the giant within ?

When i will i tell my self .... Anuj, give two hoots about what people around you think of you, or what people around you are

planning to do with their lives ?

When will i stop living in the illusion that i'm productive and growing ... When will i be able to tell myself that ... when

the world sleeps, the men who intend to make it big in life toil...

When will I rise to the biggest challenge of my life ... When will i give up mediocrity ?

When will i Practice what i Preach ?

When will i do what most Supposedly Successful people don't do ?

When will i be able to reach a stage when i accept people close to me ... without giving a fuck for what other people have to

say about them ?

When will i learn to trust ? Trust new people, old enemies, the universe ... ?

When will i find the ability to transalte my thoughts, dreams, and visions into action ?

When will i reach a stage when thoughts, negativity and prejudice are not a part of me?

When will i achieve the flow ?

When will my mind and body align to become the most powerful force in this universe ?

When will i be able to say that losses, heart-breaks, materialistic pleasures and the works are bullshit

When will i be able to reach a stage when i lose all my wealth and say that ... whoa! this is life tooo ...

When will i believe that i'm comforably numb in my comfortably dumb world ...

What is that formulae for inspired action ?

when will i attain salvation ?

When will i attain Unmaad ?